I am not the "share it all" type these days that I used to be. I pick a few "lucky" (?) few and share it all. However, what I have noticed is that many like the ice to be broken so that they can also share their true selves. So...consider me your guinea pig, your scape goat, as it were. I am happy to just spill if it means someone else can benefit!
Some struggle with drugs, some with alcohol, others still with food even. Me? My struggle is with...people? Maybe. Words? Sometimes? Feelings? Always.
I love to twist and contort words. Word are my drug, my kryptonite. I crave them and also abhor them.
I am an odd being. I am outgoing, sarcastic, up in the air, go with the flow, do whatcha wanna, yet I need control, things need to make sense, I need to talk things out.
I am very blessed to have a great family and a great church family that "gets" me. I understand most don't get that.
My message tonight is that, even if it hurts (I get it!) just say it. Text it, say it in person or over the phone. People come for a reason. Some for a season, but ALWAYS for a reason!
Last night I finally bit the bullet and expressed what I actually was thinking. Guess what?! My friend was totally understanding and sent only love and honesty. And we are much better for it! Thank my Dear Lord! No more wondering or dread or guilt!
I love all who are suffering and all who are just fine. Grace covers us all.
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