I have been praying for a while about finding God as I used to know Him. I love God now, and I loved him back when I felt more confident in my walk as well. So...what has changed? Did He leave, or maybe just turn His attention? Did He find new, more serious things to focus His attention on?
NO!!
The bible says, multiple times, that He will NEVER leave us nor forsake us!! He is ALWAYS the same. He is our constant!! So..have I done something wrong, to be further from Him?
What I have found is that actually, as long as my heart is still seeking after Him, He is just as close as He has always been. He will NEVER leave, remember?! Nothing I can do will make Him leave. That's called Grace, y'all!!! And no matter how fast I run, He will always be on my tail, not chastising, as so many in this world do, but loving me, directing me to His love and peace. All I have to do is be still to know that!! That's why I haven't been able to feel His presence. I have let so many other "fixes" take the place of His peace. I don't need a crowd of people, a few "guilty pleasures." I only need God. His Spirit brings Divine Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self Control. All that I've been looking for- all right there in one prayer: Send Your Spirit, Lord.
References: Deuteronomy 31, Joshua 1, Hebrews 13, Galatians 5
